New Year

I have been wanting to write for a while now but I just haven't felt ready to. I've been thinking a lot about what the new year means for me, how I can get the energy to jump in full steam ahead
with clear, organized goals... and as usual it has been a rocky start.
In the past week or so I have made many lists and done lots of talking and thinking but no real doing. I've made mental plans to be more proactive and productive, but my action has been left for the future. Tomorrow, next week, some other time when I have a bit more energy, when I get over this cold, when I am ready... I've wanted to declare my hopes and dreams for this year loudly and with certainty, but the certainty part was lagging behind a little. Today however, I did something I don't often do. I just went for it. I put on some appropriate clothing, declared myself a runner and attempted a 5K with a dear friend of mine.

Now let me explain that I've done some talking about this. When Bo and I joined the gym this fall I thought, hey, I can do this. I'll work out, do some training and maybe try to run a 5k in the spring. What a great goal. Last night at dinner my ever so motivated friend Amanda mentioned that she was running a 5k today with a friend who, as of January 1st, has decided she is going to start running and do a 5k every MONTH. I was shocked for half a minute and then realized that I have been thinking about a 5k as if it was a marathon. Not being a runner it feels like a marathon. But then I realized that I can certainly walk a 5k no problem, so why not just try to run it and see how well I can do? The worst that could happen was that I would walk the whole thing. And what's so bad about that? So I took the plunge today, and while I can't say I ran, I did jog for much more of it than I thought possible and finished in 35min 27seconds! Not that this is any great record but it is my first time, I didn't die (or even want to at any point which is shocking to me) and now I know it can be done! I did a 5k, something I had never even entertained doing before.

SO. While I am feeling pretty good and quite proud of myself for today, I also am feeling a bit more prepared for the year. I have a few goals in mind, a few things I want to try, work on, and work towards, and I'm feeling ready to take action instead of just thinking about them. I tend to think and plan for a very long time before I feel ready to actually go for anything. This is a big and reoccuring lesson for me, that I forget and need to be reminded of often. Just do it. Go for it, embrace it, take action. You can only think so much and then it's time to DO it.

My biggest and most present goal is to get my own massage practice up and running. While I'm nervous about the process and the financial uncertainty, I feel like it's the right time and that somehow it's going to work out. You never know what will happen until to you go for it. So here's to a new year, positive events, lots of happiness, love and success for each and everyone of us!

Happy New Year!